I have been keeping a journal from the first day I received my gel in the mail. I have spent most of my career as a Nurse and I have paid attention to detail since my childhood. I knew that this would be the way for me to complete an accurate subjective assessment of all that my body was going to go through, weekly, daily and even hourly at times.
I will have future posts that may break down some of these areas of noticeable change more clearly, but for today I simply want to give my current nurse’s report, so to speak. Here we go.
Within the first couple of hours of using the gel, I could “feel” something in my head being altered. It felt as though I had taken a pill that was adjusting a hormone level, and I was actually panicking because I have always been firmly against any medication that was going to change my personal body levels in any way. It took 3 years of hell before they could get me on medicines for my change of life. It wasn’t until my body was physically suffering dangerous blood lab levels that my doctor and I had a semi screaming match before I gave in. In my opinion today I made the worst decision possible in letting her put me on those monsters, but that is another story.
This feeling in my head happened every time I used the gel for almost a week! Why didn’t this woman stop? Wasn’t the bad side effects a reason to just say forget it like I had so many other homeopathic agents before? No! I will explain why.
This feeling was also coming with immediate results and rationale for this nurse to wrap her head around. I was taking vital signs and checking urine ph, etc so I could SEE what the results were. It wasn’t a blind pill that was going to take weeks or longer to do its job effectively. This stuff was showing its results as I was using pumps.
Within the first week I could tell a major difference in my anxiety level. I have been living with serious anxiety and roller coaster hormone rides for a little over five years now. I don’t sleep. I can’t concentrate. I am afraid of my own shadow most of the time. That PTSD has been in my life since September of 2013. It never leaves and it only gets worse with public interaction. I can no longer go near a mall or a Wal-Mart as the crowds are just something my mind can’t keep up with and it causes massive panic attacks. Those of course set off my asthma, so going anywhere near the situations that cause this were no longer options in my life. I haven’t driven a car by myself anywhere over the speed of 30 mph in so long that I can’t remember it at all now.
I slept the 5th night. I actually slept. I didn’t toss and turn and wake my family up screaming at the top of my lungs at 4 in the morning. That happens a lot! That is when I realized I was actually not getting stuck in my nightly ritual of nightmares, playbacks and fear that rips through my soul like a sword. I was dreaming! Playful, happy, blissfully calm dreams. Dreams I could recall just as vividly as I do every nightmare I have. If this is the ONLY result I receive from this gel, my life has been forever changed. The good news is that it’s not.
I was in a horrid car wreck, at the hands of a high and drunk driver, who decided putting me through a brick wall was a smart thing to do one rainy night. I remember nothing to this day. I lost time that has never come back. My already Scoliosis back was now dealing with this. Strong I would never be again. Pain free was no longer an option. Strength training and maintain. That became the new normal for me many years ago.
I was diagnosed with the worst case of Fibromyalgia ever seen by my doctors in over 20 years. This crap can literally render me bedridden unless I have my family help me get up some days. Walking through the freezer section of any store has been impossible for many years now. I usually have my heat near 80 by Fall because if I don’t I can’t walk. I am on the highest dose possible for it twice a day and that brings my pain to about 4 or 5 if I am lucky. Again, maintain and endure. Key words for life with Robbie.
Are you ready? I noticed I wasn’t hurting when I got up in the morning about 12 days in. I was bending and getting up off a kitchen chair without struggling. My husband saw me bend over to get something one day and said, “How the hell did you just do that?” I said, “do what?” He says to me, “You just bent over and got that container out from under the coffee station!” Well heck, I guess I did, and I didn’t get dizzy, or fall over, or need him to help me get back up. I did it without even thinking.
That’s when I realized… OMG… I haven’t taken my pills in two days. I have a weekly container that I fill up on Sunday evenings. I went rushing in the bedroom and realized it was Tuesday. I had not taken them and didn’t feel one bit of pain anyway! What I also hadn’t taken was my change of life pills from hell. I wasn’t moody. I wasn’t soaking the bed at night. I wasn’t crying over everything! So I went to every other day till Friday and stopped them all. I have not taken anything but my small blood pressure pill since Friday Oct 5, 2018. I have also not had a single muscle relaxer or pain pill. None. Zero. Nadda
Tuesday, October 16th 2018 was one full month on the gel. I didn’t skip a dose at all the first 2 weeks. I actually bumped up my size of dose on the 3rd week to help me push through the detox! That in itself is another post.
Now for the biggest complexity to my first 30 days. I told you I am the critical care nurse that assesses everything all the time, right? Well, in 2003 while having a routine female exam day, my doctor panicked when he found a huge knot a little less than the size of a golf ball under my right arm. He was feeling around and asking me how long it had been there etc. I had not noticed it as I was taking care of 3 dying immediate family members in the same house and my family, as well as, 12 hour shifts at the Cardiac unit I was a nurse in. Imagine that we don’t take time for us.
I was sent immediately to the front of the line with every cancer specialist in the group at work. I became a human guinea pig! My body was also doing some other weird things like not having good muscle coordination so the tests were massive. At the end of the results was, we don’t see anything wrong, so it must be a collapsed mammary gland from nursing your children. Okay, no cancer and I can keep going. Thank you. Good bye.
Fast forward to 2014 when my female body decides to have an exorcism in my uterus and I am all but bed ridden with massive fibroid tumors that keep rupturing before we can even get to a specialist. Four hospitalizations later and we find I have more of these knots under my arm. The current team decides I am harboring infectious cyst pockets and that it is too risky to remove at my lymph nodes, so we are going to use antibiotics. During the 45 days in hell with those bad boys, I was literally sweating BLACK at night. I had entire outlines of my body on the sheets in black! Once my body started being taken over by yeast, they decided to give me a rest. People, I could barely get out of bed after that nightmare the Summer of 2015. Why did I tell you this story? Because last Thursday night I was looking at the assessment of my body and noticed ALL the knots are gone! Not shrunk a little like the antibiotic rounds did. Not making me bed ridden sick while trying to clear it up. They are gone! The detox was so freaking bad because it was clearing out whatever I fear was in my body for almost 15 years! I have no idea what it was, but it is gone.
Ladies and gentleman, we thought that one day, my husband and family were going to lose their mother because no one could figure out what was wrong with me. My health has been declining on a rather scary pace for 3 years. I have been pretty much confined to my home and yard, where it’s infectious free and organically for me. I have been trying to heal myself from whatever they couldn’t find for years. Now, I have felt better in 30 days, detox hell and all, than I have in years. I owe my life and my freedom to start living again to the man who brought this to me. John Rakityan, I love you Brother. Thank you.
Other things that are clearly noticeable are that I am up before alarm clocks and I am still sleeping like I did in school age years. My headaches are practically gone and I dealt with those daily. I seem to have less sugar cravings. I have been on a huge fish and veggies craving. That must be some things my body needs during all this transition. My moods are hilarious to my husband. He says I am never allowed off the gel in my life. He is rather enjoying the energy I am getting back so he decided to start gelling last night. Can’t wait to see his story because he is already healthy as an ox. This should be fun. Keep gellin folks… it will change your life.